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Yay Venting.

Maybe I should establish my blogging reputation before I make a vent blog but that shits gonna have to wait. It's not that I'm in a bad mood because I really don't feel that I am. It's just that I'm tired, sad, moody, annoyed, frustrated, sad, moody, pissed, frustrated, (insert your own lovely emotional combination here). I get like this a lot on weekends. I just hate being at my house ( I'm not close to my blood family at all). I'm not dancing and I don't have a job at the moment, two things I need dearly. I love being busy and I just feel like time is wasting. I feel a lot of things at the moment, mostly feelings associated with wasting away. Anyway, I don't have much else to say about that topic. I just feel "blah" because, lately I'm left not doing anything and it bothers me.

Before the Flight. The beginnings of a monologue.

Don't get too close to me. becauseIlikeyou. Im feeling lonely. butit'snotpractical. You're not in a place to like me. The complications of past have made the present painful. So im left listening to the sweet music that cradles my loneliness.

Fly Sparkle Dot Shine

It's hard to describe where my life is going. Where it may end up, or how I'll get there but I do know that the best lines of any story are the ones that succeed the question marks. My life has been the summation of plan A's turning into B's and C's but that regardless of any roadblock, I keep sight of my destination, and nothings going to stop me from getting there.

"Fly Sparkle Dot Shine" are words that inspire magic and mysticism whenever I say it. They spark up hope and passion within me. I remember that last year I was in all sorts of crossroads. I had to make choices between who I was, religion, where I was going, and what it meant. I had to let me define myself; not a deity, religion, or friend. "Fly Sparkle Dot Shine" is a mantra of mine. A saying thought more than spoken, but within each word is a treasure of memories and unwritten futures.

Those who know me personally know that this year made last years difficulties look like a joke. Everyday a challenge on multiple levels that almost seemed like sick jest from the gods. I realized several things (and still am realizing) that:

1.) Sometimes, "Untimely" events occur at the best times possible.

We can get caught up in the "now" to an unhealthy degree, but in the hindsight sometimes our "events" happen at the right time. If they occurred earlier, or even later in life, we may have not had the resources or be in the position to grow and rise above the problem the way we did.

2.) Regardless of what is thrown at me. Regardless of the spectrum of emotions I may feel. Regardless of anything. I will Always "Fly Sparkle Dot Shine". It's a part of my being. A visible (well, verbal) part of my essence.

In case we haven't met yet, I'm Michael. A peculiar creature that always manages to "Fly Sparkle Dot Shine".